today is my second day of my work. I reached work place early. I worn as normal as a promoter attire. I looked shagged and basic make up. which my colleague said i didnt put on. Haiis, no blusher = No make up.
The lecturer asked for more qns, i asked but she didnt praise me whereas she did praise the girl beside me. Haiis, mayb i asked stupid qns. I worried that my doubts were nt asked and my brains was bursting. Though i managed to copy everything, but i am confused.
During lunch break, everyone took their hps out and start their own activity as we went to food stall. But me, i did not bring. Why? cos my baby is MIA. I felt disappointed and discouraged whenever i looked at my phone. I wished he can be the first one to message me. But when i call him, he is having fun. Give me a reason not to disturb me. I am not stupid to leave my hp sounded. I am in a bad mood cos i am stressed out. I thought he will wait for me outside.
It was once heartwarming,
he was sweet and nice.
he gave me once.
But this will happen once in the lifetime.
Things changes after i settled down.
Everyday i will be training like Uni study for their exams.
4 hours to absorb whole book, 3 hours to absorb whole lesson.
8 hours of separating from baby.
And i started to panic and fear..
did he understand my pain?
I jus wan some supportive words, and encouragement.
I do not want to breakdown like what lecturer hopes to see.
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