today morning i put on my lenses. i felt painful.
to be frank, i really cant see clearly on my specs le.
But i cant change.
so very rush, i took mrt to kovan and realised my bus ran away,
so i quickly run to mrt and take to serangoon.
i ran to the inter and take another bus to my workplace.
Whoo~ i managed to reach b4 11pm. Luckily, there was a PFC opening door for me.
It was a eye catching of our premier banking.
That lift to our second storey was so slow.
Den i was attached to a PTBO same rank as me. She was same age as me too.
Young and fast and agile.
A good example for me..
We eat lunch tgt and go hm tgt.
I understand i am new, so they tend to crack jokes abt me.
So jus crack wif them. So fake but at least can survive till closing.
I am freezing cold.
Bb scold me for nt doing things right.
SInce i working for so many days,
he had been complainin abt me.
I dun understand why he so concern abt my work affairs.
I am tired cos i need to study and work at the same time.
I dun hav extra time for him.
he nagged, he complains, he fussed. he messed.
Haiis, hope this will stopp my ears from hurting.
i am damm frustrated!!
This morning i almost late for work.
My stomach upset, my test buang~
Now i jus receive a damm big bad news.
I gt a early termination from M1.
Shit man~
Becos of my careless, my eye stamped.
I have to bear the charges.
I am fully in debts.
How could i able to work in peace?
I am still worrying abt my training will buang and end up i get nothin
Really nothing!!
Let me die for the sake.
My head cracks.
I am so bad luck.
Am i a jinx?
today is my second day of my work. I reached work place early. I worn as normal as a promoter attire. I looked shagged and basic make up. which my colleague said i didnt put on. Haiis, no blusher = No make up.
The lecturer asked for more qns, i asked but she didnt praise me whereas she did praise the girl beside me. Haiis, mayb i asked stupid qns. I worried that my doubts were nt asked and my brains was bursting. Though i managed to copy everything, but i am confused.
During lunch break, everyone took their hps out and start their own activity as we went to food stall. But me, i did not bring. Why? cos my baby is MIA. I felt disappointed and discouraged whenever i looked at my phone. I wished he can be the first one to message me. But when i call him, he is having fun. Give me a reason not to disturb me. I am not stupid to leave my hp sounded. I am in a bad mood cos i am stressed out. I thought he will wait for me outside.
It was once heartwarming,
he was sweet and nice.
he gave me once.
But this will happen once in the lifetime.
Things changes after i settled down.
Everyday i will be training like Uni study for their exams.
4 hours to absorb whole book, 3 hours to absorb whole lesson.
8 hours of separating from baby.
And i started to panic and fear..
did he understand my pain?
I jus wan some supportive words, and encouragement.
I do not want to breakdown like what lecturer hopes to see.
Its was a complicated wedding dream i had.
I asked for a day before to spend with my family and also let baby to spend with his mother.
Then one day, we have to try on our wedding suit again and confirm our planning of tables and food. Baby brought his parents but not mine. I asked baby do we have to get a vegetarian menu jus for his mum. His mum looked at me. She mumbling and said dont need.
However, baby was trying to be proud again. He asked for more tables where 20 tables is enuff.
In the meantime, he have a call and after the call. He did not have the mood to discuss with the planner. Jus wann to leave as soon as possible. I felt upset. I told him, if u dun wan to listen or give comments den i dont marry. I dont give a damm. I wann to have my wedding perfect.
He told me he lost a contract by a friend. den planning for guests to the wedding dinner. I make a request, i dun wan to invite his sixth uncle and fourth uncle. I afraid that they might spoilt my wedding.
after that i am thinking i shall not ask so many bridemaids to acc me but looks like nobody will bully baby for coming to open my veil.
Haiis, den have to discuss whether to call my mum "MA" or "Mummy". How to process the traditional tea session. As i knew baby do not earn so much at that moment, but i do not want my parents to take out their money to spend on my wedding. It shld be baby the one who have to fork out, Cant share~ Cos he is the one marrying me, however he ask me to fork out some if i wan a grand wedding.
Ended up we dun have larbogini and 30 tables, we hav rented mercedes and catering in the ballroom.
Actually i dun mind to have simple wedding dinner, just that i do not wish anyone to spoil my wedding and i dun wish my parents to worry about my wedding.
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