After exam had finished, i been sticking with him.
Finally i have time to help him do something.
But he still dont want to let me do alone.
Haiis, now got two things to settle.
Hehes, enjoying my free time~
my three promises to him;
make me feel like litte small girl..
let him be my guardian.
no matter how's our future is like...
I promise you, i will not mention anything regards our relationship.
till the day you decided to settle down.
my logic of happiness is
"I love the person so much and the person loves me very much"
if one day i really do in impulsive, i do not hope that you will stop me without any reason.
i jus wish that you will ask me stay behind and turn back to you.
dont mind u believe or not, i will get myself marry before 30 yrs old.
Hope you will understand my feelings till now.
Labels: this is the happiness i am looking for
Past generations make sins, let this generations to pay back. What kind of logic is this?
Alot of problem arising in my mother's side relatives. How shameless they are, imagine they are people who have stable income. They are all grown up, and still they come to us ( schooling kids) to borrow tons of money. Haiis, my mother still wann to use our money to borrow and not lecture them. She does not protect us from rainy days rather than lending them money to pay credit company or loansharks. Haiis, what had happen to this world?
i will not let my own family involve with all these kind of stressful.
Let's stay cheerful facing our new future.
S.M.I.L.E
its an unexpected situation happen on friday, i accidently hinted to him abt my wish.
I do not know what's in his mind thinking of...
He eventually thinking of last min asking me out.
Haiis, see thats the consequence of high ego. Thinking tt i will make myself free on tt particular day jus for him. Hello.. Now i dun wish to do that anymore.. My face is thinner and thinner.. No more thickness..
Overall, i could say he had tried his best to do all his work. Jus tt he cant change his habits of praising other gals in front of me cos he took me for granted liao. YA , normally i may dun mind. But today is V day, the main character shld b me and not them. Right?
Haiis, i am so selfish..
Wondering if i really grad and went to work out there.. Will he really jus let go me without holding me back?
I wann to hear from him asking me to stay.
I only have two choices:
first is to stay till the end with him and hope he will propose to me.
Second is waiting no end ended up miserably went up to any guy who dotes me more and get settle down.
So what kind of situation do you think i will be happiness?
How will i be happy?
我真的好羡慕，好羡慕，好羡慕她们。
Looking at girlfriends' blogs, reading their experience in life with their boyfriends.
I felt full of jealous and envy.
They have plans for coming valentine day.
Though its every once a year, they are looking forward.
Some people may want to confess their feelings,
some may want to take this chance to spend with their loved ones.
Some may busy working or studying had already forgotten.
Singles are not lonely if they have girlfriends to spend with.
I do, however i wish to hear from him asking me out.
I dun wish to be the one proposing him the qns.
Can i have this chance to hear from you?
I dun wish to be the one proposing him the qns.
Can i have this chance to hear from you?
everyone was wondering; why this person is able to hold me for 4 years without failure.
Let me tell you,
Actually this person has his own characteristics which nobody have.
He do not show his true feelings to anyone else, included me. But i can feel it. However, i wish he could show out.
He has his own motivation of getting into a situation and nobody will able to persuade him included me. How i wish that i can be the one.
He treats everyone equally, either his parents or friends. But he knows who are the people importance in his heart. Am i one of it?
He has a weird temper, stubbornly deny what he has done is common to him. He has his own opinion which will let you believe that he is right.
He wanted to show me how hard he had been trying to b a "good man".
Why he has alot of girl friends and boy friends , reason is to be sociable and expand his network.
He is devoted to whom treated him nicely alwys. He wanted to protect me from harm that comes from the wonderland. He wanted to concern my situation and tried very hard to b there for me. But fate doesnt let him to do so.
He wanted to hold me tight so that i wont complain of coldness and insecurity. But he doesnt know when should he do so.
He wanted to let me feel happy everyday that he keep trying to dote me and play fun with me whenever i am in anger. But somehow different status tells a thing, which i will nv able to feel happy.
LASTLY, he wanted to get me many many good foods and things. But we are not rich. The most is to spend for each other. I wanted to share my weas and woes with him, wanted to have the same pair as him and wanted to capture every moment of us spending for each other.
But we have different points of view, different taste of senses and different characteristics.
However, we give in for each other whenever whom is in bad mood. But somehow this doesnt reflect on this person at all. The same mistakes had been repeated many many times.
I understand why till now i am still staying beside him because we shared.
I understand why he couldnt let go this kind of relationship because we went thru alot of obstacles and rely on each other too much.
I jus dont understand why i cant have a real time of true relationship tt is accepted by everyone.
i am so busy till i almost forget today going to pai nian.
Alot of projects and quizes coming at a time, out of a sudden i felt startled.
my shoes spolit; need to sew back. it cost me bucks, i dun wish to buy another one.
a special day is coming;
i dont wan to b the one making the first move.
anyway, i will be working next sat. no surprise means no chance anymore.
its abt end of chinese new year,
let's recap what i have done for these few days.
First day- Temple prayer at Sengakng , A visit to Ah Ma hse; eat lunch den Visit to Da Jiu hse; Visit to gelvin hse play blackjack.
Second day- A visit to Da Bo hse pray Ah Gong, visit to Gu Ma hse den visit to Ah Kim hse; bring all cousins to cinema."The Wedding game". Conclusion; Dont bring kids along!! So troublesome than old folks.
Sch Open first day, submission of projects. busy rushing to finish it by thurs.
Finally, MIO website design had done and presented.
Next is Modsim project. Coming up is my fashion assignment.
Haiis, having problems with the ARENA..
Gambling during CNY is a relaxation. Win or Lose is depends on ur luck. Cant blame whom, either how big the bet is when you are the banker. That's why i lose at first, den win back the next day. hahas.. Excitement is always becos of your friends.
Facing with uncertain situation like, suspicious with this guy( what is he doing out there). His responsibility between family and me, respecting my family. Coming up special occasions. I jus feel that it is jus wasting my saliva to remind and remind him or forced him to go out wif me. Haiis, i jus cant be bothered.
Nevertheless, in my thoughts. He is still concern abt my feelings, he knows what i am thinking. However, he doesnt want to let me know. The way of his caring, doesnt touched my heart. rather than, his aggressiveness keep on hurting me. Between reality and dreams, i have alot of mindsets. Decide when to follow which at which time. But he doesnt want. He asked me to face the real reality of these world. Why Human have to be so tensed up in this world?
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