After so many days of working, i felt tiring. Haiis, though can earn money but still getting worn out. Esp nort enuff slp, recently this guy acc me to buy my clothes & my exp bag. Whoo~ i felt relieved. Then happily attending my lecturer's wedding. OMG!! it's so romantic & touching. I almost cried. Too bad, i drunk. Have to trouble this guy to look after me. Haiis, it's already midnite. However, i dunno why i felt irritating when he keep nagging at me. Hahas.
I dun wish to keep on sticking on him. As if i am very loose. Esp when he treats me very good awhile den put me aside, he doesnt know this feeling how hurts me. Haiis, then he went to play pool i go along again. We waited till midnite den he still wan to wait. i tot he alwys worried abt me going home late. Why? becos as long he wan to play he dun care. And i accompany him till two plus. Haiis, he still claimed tt we can stay up late. Pls lar. when we finished playing. he immediately ask me to go home. never even concern abt me, tt is why he is so irresponsible. he jus do for himself. I had been stressing over my work. And this guy is making me confused. I dunno. I thinking all those precaution jus dun wan to hurt myself again.; he lied to me once. I am afraid.
POOF!! After so many days of working, finally get to rest today. Hmms, still feel nort enuff slping. Whole body esp my beautiful eyes so tired. haiis, recently i been slacking in my workplace. Actually shld say stressing, cos my seniors put high hopes on me. They oso teach me alot of things. Sometimes, putting an act in front of customers esp to 'CHINA GIRLS AND PROSITUTES'. Haiis, this is called customers relations. No matter how tired or upset, u cant show them your temper. Then, i still having my 'da yi ma'. Giving me more stress & worn out my tireness. Haiis, spending money is necessary when comes to needs. I been counting & counting for my expenses, hope it doesnt overload my burden. Currently i wishing to buy alot of things- bag esp, black ribbon, heels and clothes from my boss's relative shop. I like them very much. So i count all over again. That makes me headache ended up couldnt slp well. Hmms, now i thinking carefully ler, i need to get a bag b4 irynn's wedding. Then, i wait till i get my pay first liao den buy my clothes. I felt very angry wif this guy becos i jus merely ask him wann help me buy my bag first, he nv understand my situation properly and popped out all his logics to me. I am nort spendthift okay. I am nort materlistic oso. No matter i buy first or later, i still will buy right? Mus well nort regretting, i have it owned den wait till i got my pay. Then i put it back to my savings. Does it the same? Haiis, he told me nort to compare to others but he alwys compare himself and me. Let me wann to argue him back. Haiis, i shouldnt tell him anything in the first place. This guy very funny, after all his lectures to me. He said tt he will buy for me jus to return me something. PLS LAR!! wart for so unwilling buy for me and give me such excuses. Still say keep his words, OH PLS!! dont make ur own decision again. I will nort accept this kind of sincerity.I never do anything need him to repay me back. So wart for!! Those things i wish him to buy for me willingly but he never. Haiis, I hate his autocratic. I nv answer his call becos i dun wan to quarrel wif him. I dun wan to sms him oftenly becos i find it no meaning when he dont appreciate moreover he dont interested in me.
i really dunno wart to do ler. Wart to say, this guy is letting me feel upset all the time. Imagine a guy asked a girl to pay for him. Dont he feel ashamed? Haiis, I hate giving this attitude. This guy alwys act as a small boy & accommendating me along. I dun like him doing these. I wann him to be his own, nort compromise my mood. He jus only pampering my temper and making it worsen. How much i feel so bad when he gets frustrate abt me.
why cant he jus behave himself well, dun need to purposely rmb abt my things den sometimes forget abt my things. Haiis, this will let me feel upset u noe. haiis, he doesnt know my habits, my likes or dislikes. Even dunno how to make me happy, he jus do as he likes. Being autocratic without asking me den make his own decision otherwise ask me liao den still follow his decision. Mus well dont ask. Haiis, forget it. Anyway, he dun have to understand me since HE IS NORT INTERESTED IN ME. i dun need him to protect me or bother abt me. it is none of his business since he choose to STUDY. everything i jus solve myself.
After working for two days, i felt quite slacking. And abit tired, cos due to lack of slp. hehes. Hmms, running up & down to take and give stocks. Whoo~ it's bit fun. That's jus begining. There are many things i have to learn. Well, i wann to work is to keep myself busy. Actually, this guy didnt sms me during my work time. i oso wont feel insecure. but he alwys make decisions & change decision without asking me. Haiis, rmb tt time. i was abt to look for him. Cos i dunno wart he exact time he end. So i went earlier, its raining heavy. So i call him wann bring umbrella marh. I dunno why his hp alwys get cooped up whenever i wann look for him. otherwise, dunno where the hell he gone to. Perhaps this is fate. Then, reaching TM. I wann go his sch wait gor him. But i afraid he his on the way to TM. so i waited for his sms. Haiis, to my expect, he didnt ask me where am i. Jus ask me to meet him at MRT. Haiis. why mus i alwys the one be patience wif him. At first, i dunno whether he really wann me to go along wif him marh. I am alwys the one initiative to go wif him. Haiis. then ytd. He told me tt he wann go orchard to collect his phone. He is looking for his mum's shoes. I was thinking how come his mum 'shoes is at orchard leh? or he is lying to me. The person is nort his mum but somebody else? Haiis. Wartever, he oso nv ask me to go along. So i am damm sad. he alwys wait until nothing to do den find me. When he is busying, he ignore me. He say himself, he dont like me leh. Den he is doing like this, treating me like tools as he like. my pride & feelings are toyiing by him. Actually, i dunno why he decide telling me to stay at home & rest well. He is going somewhere nort wann let me go along? Haiis, forget it. let him enjoy & have fun barh. I wont go spy this guy derh. He dont like me marh. wart can i say? So unbearable...
I was awake by this guy's call. Mmms.... I feel happiness. never forgetting my finger was bandaged. WHY? cos last night my finger got cut & bled profusely. OMG!! Then, slowly i washed & ready to eat breakfast. Do my things, den bathe liao. Get ready to go out, on the way i was thinking of how to against the conslutant. Hehes, after 5mins searching for the place. I went in & there she is. Being persuade to get a package frm them, i kept insisted of rejecting them. Hahas. Finally a free trial and a free kit trial. Now, on the way to AMK hub. Haiis, this guy hor really a biased. He was busy dating wif those gals till night, never help me look out for jobs de lor. I found alot of jobs here. I guess his eyes wasnt on the lookout, all his focus is on the two gals nia. No wonder nv see any post. Hmms, i dun wish to quarrel wif him on this matter anymore. Cos bickering here & there, still wont have conclusion derh. Actually i wann go find him derh, but in his phone. He sounded like dun wish me to go over there leh. He keep ask me go find my mother. Haiis, so i went home sadly. On the way, i received a call. its a good news but...
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