After i watch the VCD- Er Mo Zai Shen Bian, i realised this girl casted by Raine Yang. She is so xin fu than me. I tot HE had gave me the things as he could, i feel contented. But the most impt thing he had nort done is to tell me how impt am i to him. All the while i am jus loving him, give in him as long as he happy. But never realised tt i have lost the power of being loved or being adored. I felt so upset, i know i cant expect things frm him as i dun hav the rights. Haiis, after i told me wart i wann frm him. i tot he can give me an answer. however, he told me tt he got nothing to say. I am so disappointed. How can he treat our friendship cum relationship nort bothering at all.
So i decided to give up all the hopes in him, let him do wart he thinks is right. Mayb one day he will know or he never understand my feelings. I doubt he doesnt know wart to do next. Perhaps my existing in his life is jus a tool to him. No matter in future how hard we go, i jus wann an answer to move on. Being frank to me, is my content. I dun wish him hiding frm me anymore.
It was a cold day, ytd He came to my sch & find tt childish man. He had a talk wif him and who noes turned out making me wrongful. I jus being righteous, wann help my friend Long nu; whom ask me to. Haiis, today i seldom talk to them. Hence leading me to a bored and cold cold day. Hmms, my mind is wandering although i still having my lesson. Cos on one side, i dun wish to
Then ard noon, i dun have lecture. Nobody accompany me, while i waiting for my friend an hour. I am so lonely wishing he is there for me. but i knew he is doing things. Haiis. Then after i ended my maths remedial, i wish to look for him. Cos i find him sounded very sick. Abit worrying abt him, when i call him. he promised me tt he will cal me when he woke up. but when i reached home, i saw him online again. no matter how i msn him. he jus ignored me. I am so frustrated.
But i dun wann to call him afraid tt he might be still slping. I am so
Let me find a job barh. I am so jobless and loneliness.
Yesterday is a real tough day for me, when i reach school. I saw Long nu & her bf sitting there waiting for me. Hmms so good of them. Her bf out of sudden became so quiet. I felt relieved. However nightmares couldnt end. Jus abt to end our Business Process lesson. Long nu was
It was worried of me abt Long nu, then we went to look for her. I saw her bf grabbing her dun wann allow us to get together. becos he dun wan her ex to come. So how i wann grab back Long nu, i was being push away by her bf. Haiis, at the critical moment. He accidentally touch my face & kick me back. I was get hotted!! Argh, i use all my strength to fight wif him. I even use my fake cry to alert others. but they tot we are playing. OMG!! it was so disappointed.
How i hope at this moment he will come & help me. Sobb, so i ran all over to get back my Zun yan. Hmms, den we went to the canteen, he irritated me again. I wann use the dustin to throw at him. Wa lao. He grabbed my both wrists tt i couldnt move. Then i try to pinch his hands off my hands. Hergh!! how can he like tt,now my both wrist so red & pain. Eventually after tt we went back to our next lesson. I was totally no mood to do anything. Haiis, so sad that he had disappointed me. Where did he go? At the end of the day. Did he came to me? Wart's the point of worrying me at his mind, he mad at me, but does he understand my feelings?
I decided nort to care anybody, its none of my business, haiis nobody concern abt me or fight back for my rights. How sad am i, now i have to put down this humilate and try to make him happy. Cos i dun wan him to get affected.
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